扌斤月要

another depressing and stressful week :(

got to stuck with the thing i'm least good at since 19!

i can't stand with being clumsy while others "flashly" have things done
this makes me even nervous and stressed

it sucks!

so what about my study?????
so little time and mood.....
(why do shit happen during spring time so often?!?!)


to the end, it is all about money
i really hate myself being like this

3/12

another depressing week, especially after travel.
will i ever understand what exactly all the stuff i'm doing right now?
is this the place i'm belonging to?

life has been frustrating, especially during office hours without air conditioning
i am feeling suffocated.

i'm really confused.
i can't find the meaning of my work to my life except (rather little) money